the place.

there is this place,
where things that are lost go.

they vanish right under your face,
wherever it is we will never know.

they are things we miss and need,
if only we could find a lead -

to guide us to our possessions that have left without a trace,
and gone to this mysterious place.

(Okay, so poems aren't my forte. Whatever)


Really though, have you ever lost something and you don't know where it went? Of coarse you have lost the socks in the dryer - that is a given. But it goes so far beyond that. Jack and myself made a list of things gone missing just in the past four years. It's not right. Where is this place? I want my stuff back!

Missing:

- Heather's American flag tank top
- Heather's black jeans
- Two pairs of Jack's glasses
- Heather's laptop (yeah - a freaking computer!!)
- Jack's tye-dye Lambda shirt
- Heather's cute Levi's bag (probably with the laptop)
- Jack's A White Christmas
- Heather's Season Four of F*R*I*E*N*D*S
- Jack's Huckleberry Finn
- Jack's Belle & Sebastian CD
- Countless unmentionables
- Jack's original Arizona library card
- Heather's corduroy coat
- Heather's NYPD sweatshirt
- Heather's fairy wings
- Heather's Victoria, BC jacket
- Jack's book She's Come Undone
- Jack's grandma's pug
- Spoons.



Have any of your belongings gone to this stupid place?

s u r v e y .

Ten thing​s you wish you could​ say to ten different peopl​e right​ now (​don'​t list names​)​

1. I want you to go away. Just go.

2. I wish you had your heart set on more Godly things rather than things that won't matter in the end. But I still love you a whole bunch.

3. You make me feel better about myself.

4. I think you need to grow up and search really hard for what you think is good for you and then just freaking do it and don't hold back.

5. I . L O V E . Y O U . so much you could never really know how much.

6. I wish you weren't so.... you.

7. I wish you would grow up. I think then you would be fantastic.

8. I feel sick inside when I think about what my life would be like if you weren't in it.

9. Thank you. For everything. I love you even though I don't act like it.

10. I don't want you to come to my wedding.


Nine thing​s about​ yours​elf.
​
1. I don't get a lot people.

2. I like potatoes. A lot.

3. All that I've wanted I now have (for the most part...)

4. I love to sing but the thought of doing it in front of others make me want to pee my pants.

5. I just really want braces.

6. I hold really good grudges...

7. I'm less afraid of the future then I was a month ago.

8. I LOVE the rain.

9. I can make a clover with my tongue.


Eight​ ways to win your heart​.

1. Bear hug me.

2. Say I am beautiful when I look like a mess.

3. Give me a red gerbera daisy :)

4. Let me just be with you and not have to say anything.

5. Send me letters.

6. Sing in my ear.

7. Encourage and help me to be a better person.

8. Pray. With me. For me.


Seven​ thing​s that cross​ your mind a lot.

1. Love

2. School

3. Oklahoma

4. Death

5. Money

6. Deltas.

7. Future.


Six thing​s you wish you never​ did.

1. Not study for the SAT until the night before.

2. Waited until college to do stuff on my own.

3. Quit the violin.

4. Spent so much money on nothing.

5. Stayed up that extra hour.

6. Ate all those 2,473,075,305,974,572 donuts in seventh grade.


Five turn offs.

1. Drinking

2. Smoking

3. Those who lack respect.

4. Wretched smelling folk, even when freshly showered...

5. Guys who are just.... stupid.


Four turn-ons.

1. Humorous.

2. Loves children and a bonus if he's good with them.

3. A great smile and laugh.

4. Smells amazing...mmm, man.


Three​ smileys that descr​ibe your life.

1. ; )

2. :)

3. : P


Two thing​s you want to do befor​e you die.

1. Have children and a family of my own.

2. Travel. Like, with a passport. Destination: World.


One confe​ssion​.

1. I knew what I wanted and needed a long time ago...I just had to be patient and then one day God blessed me with it.

snow.

This is Sean trying to free Ben's van after Ben's cheap Walmart chains broke and thus made the van stuck. We borrowed a shovel from the neighbor.

This used to be the Delta fountain...now it's just a snow/ice blob.

Merry Christmas, Cascade.

This is my postcard picture : )

The poor tree that fell down...

Someone thought themselves to be clever and put a "for sale" sign by the Cascade sign.

There was far too much snow this Christmas. A white Christmas sounds all lovely and such until it turns into the ARCTIC BLAST 08. Well, Christmas break consisted of me staying on campus in my warm dorm room and well, surfing the internet. Spencer downloaded something on the computer called Stumble which is pretty nifty and kept me entertained far more than it should have. Only download if you dare... the program/site/whatever it is lets you mark off areas of interest and then when you click the "stumble" button on your browser, you are taken to a random website that is related to one of your interests. It's pretty cool but far too addicting.

Basically, I decided to stay here for break so I could have Christmas with my family since I was in Manteca with Spencer's for Thanksgiving. However, Christmas was just one day out of this break that seems to have no end... so was it worth it? I'm still trying to figure that out. Sean stayed in Portland over break as well so he came with me to my aunt's for Christmas and met some of the family. Pretty much everyone thought he was my boyfriend so that was awkward. I didn't really get presents but my mom took me shopping a couple weeks prior and we sort of count that as her presents to me - that's what we've done the last few years.

My mom beating Sean at cards.

Me and the cousin. Hooray product placement.

As far as my dorm room, we we're prepared for Christmas as soon as I came back from Thanksgiving break. We pretty much just had a....eclectic tree and some stockings. But it was fun nonetheless. One night Jack and I watched (don't quote me on the order) Charlie Brown Christmas, Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer, Frosty the Snowman, Elf...I think that's all. It was a Christmas movie bonanza! Good times indeed. Speaking of movies, I tried to make an effort to watch only movies I own (or at least have been in my suite all semester) that I have yet to see. The list included A Wonderful Life (I know, I suck at life...), Finding Neverland, Wicker Park (Josh Hartnett is a S C U M bag. I wanted to punch the movie if that's even possible) and I think there was another one...or two. Oh well. Oh! Toys and Benny and Joon. Whew. That's was a close one.

This is when Ben & Kristina were hanging around trying to get a flight out of here after many many change of flight plans... but look at our stockings and tree! It has a top hat and sunglasses!

This is my homemade snowman aka an ikea lamp : )

Also, Sarah taught me how to crochet. I pretty much sucked at first and after two...strands? (I don't know crochet terminology) I decided it was better if the wannabe scarf ended...so I started completely over. I'm about a third done and it's not looking too shabby so yay me.

There's some more adventures in there I know but we'll leave it at that for now. Enjoy all the pictorals, eh?

flyleaf.

Okay, so I am really bad at finding good bands but while on Thanksgiving break at Spencer's we were watching music videos and this song came on. It's a song from Flyleaf entitled "I'm alive". I really liked it. The video was mesmorizing. Then, today Sarah showed me some cool feature on itunes that allows you to create a play list off of one song. Well, I did and this was on the play list and I was just reminded how much I liked it. So I thought I would share. Enjoy now.

My hands are searching for you

My arms are outstretched towards you

I feel you on my fingertips

My tongue dances behind my lips for you

-

This fire rising through my being

Burning I'm not used to seeing you

-

I'm alive

I'm alive

-

I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this heart that's healing

-

My hands float up above me

And you whisper you love me

And I begin to fade

Into our secret place

-

The music makes me sway

The angels singing say we are alone with you

I am alone and they are too with you

-

I'm alive

I'm alive

-

I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this heart that's healing

-

And so I cry

The light is white

And I see you

-

I'm alive

I'm alive

I'm alive

-

I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this heart that's healing

-

Take my hand I give it to you

Now you own me, all I am

You said you would never leave me

I believe you, I believe

-

I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this heart that's healed

2009.

Dang, this is my third blog this year and it's only the second day! Well, this post is really just to say what I just said...so with that being said, my (realistic) New Year's Resolution is to blog more.

Period.

The End.

On the sidewalk near Hawthorne...or Belmont...I think.

boyfriend.

In case any of you were curious...

Name: Spencer Valadez
Age: 21
Hometown: Manteca, CA
Previous relationship to Heather: best friend
Dating since: Nov.2 (this is a good way for them both to remember)
Reason for dating now as opposed to 4 years ago: inquire with Spencer. Heather isn't sure.
Cute couple photo: This is the best I got, sorry it's blurry




any other questions? bring it.

r a n d o m .

I apologize for the fact this post is completely random but I felt compelled to share some photos along with some stories with you. Actually, they are in fact, NOT random in that they all have to do with my life. So there. A common thread for those who need it.

We start at the beginning-ish of Witness tour. This is me standing on a rock. This is a very funny and ironic photo as there was a song I sang entitled "Stand on the Rock". Get it?

This is a photo of my third grade group I had for the duration of PSP. Although they were a bit rambunctious at times and the largest group, I loved having them. They're cute, loud and rarely well behaved - but you gotta love 'em.

Here is a video that comes from our Finale program - where parents are invited to see what they're children have been doing and what they have learned during their time at PSP. This was a fan - kid - youth group - intern - favorite, especially when led by intern Jessie. No one pulls off that good ol' southern pastor voice like she does...

I'm sorry, I really don't have any nice transitions... this particular blog is for those with A.D.H.D.

Fast forward to school... last year, a great project called the Wishing Well Project was brought to Cascade. Basically you make art, sell it, use the money to build wells in Africa so they can have clean water. You can click here for more information about Wishing Well. These are a few things I have made for the project.

Now for some of the things I have done this semester...

Race for the Cure with my Delta sisters

I taught Amanda how to play Chess on the most epic board ever. This took place during East County's Retreat that was mentioned in a blog a little while back...

Next: Halloween-ish time

Kingsmen/Delta ***** party

[note: we don't ***** because it makes babies]

This is Kyle, he was Jack Bauer and I was, well, America.

Here I am with a cave woman, Rosie and the Brooke-doll*, who I dressed up as a flower.

*Brooke-doll: a substitute given to the ladies of Delta Sigma Rho while the real Brooke Aus was away in Vienna for study abroad.

Here Kyle is doing the chicken dance because well, Spencer was a chicken. I have no other words for this. Who knew in like less than a week from this picture, I would be dating this chicken...

For the Halloween party at school, Jack and I went as Wayne and Garth. We also towed around GH guitars. We were pretty much awesome.

I think it's time we ended this crazy-make-no-sense-post. But this is what I've been doing this semester..hope you have enjoyed this glimpse into the world of Heather.