Donkey.

Ass. It's one of my favorite words to say, not the best choice of words but nobody's perfect. I'm so sick of people right now. Mostly just certain ones, not necessarily the whole lot of them. I think I have found a label for these types of "friends". I say it in quotes because that is how we classify them but they do not act as they should in the least. This new term I have come to know is called "Silence of Critique". Basically, it's when you accept your friends. For instance, you don't just critique your friends, you let them speak - even if you don't agree with them (gasp!) or you don't really like what they are saying (bigger gasp!). It means you don't have to call out your friends. With this, you have more incentive to keep their mouth shut. Some can turn this around and be like, well you should be able to tell your friends everything even the bad things. But it's different, the way I see it. It's different. I can't explain it. Yes, you should tell your friends what you think and your opinions, but there is a time and a place, and that time and place shouldn't be one where they feel belittled or attacked. It's about respect, for me. I hope I am making some sense.

True friends don't do this, and I know it's just some research, but I really like the idea.
Anyways, I have realized that that is what is happening to me. Some "friends" totally do not do this. It's the complete opposite. Like, all the effing time. And I can't stand it. And I want to scream. And then the anger overflows to nearby friends - real friends - and then I feel like an ass for treating them like that. I have also come to the realization that I am pretty good at this "silence of critique" thing. (I'm ever so glad there is now a title for it) I can think of one case in particular, but that need not be shared. I don't always agree with what some of my friends say, but who am I to critique and discourage what they say to other people - in front of other people? Knowing that I try to practice this makes me feel good though, because it is what I see as a quality of a good friend and it's something I do. If you're saying, "yeah right, Heather," or you're wanting to call me a hypocrite, I am not clarifying myself about how I see this. And I'm sorry for that.

Oh, and why, please tell me why, there are those people who have to discharge to oppose every ferping thing that you say? Why is it that they choose the "opposing" side, if you will, with every topic under the sun?? Why? Please. I would like to know.

But yeah, that's the stress and new revelations in my life.

Sorry if that doesn't make much sense, I really just wanted to vent and share this new thing I learned about. Well, it's not new, but now I have a name for it.

Well, here goes.

So, I have become one of those people I said I'd never be. Those who talk all this talk but walk no walk. . . yeah. My whole plan of living off campus and going to PCC has kind of flopped. I think it's what God wanted though. Like. . . I prayed for signs of what to do and they were given. First, Micah backed out for a reason I won't go into, and then something else happened I also don't need to go into, but it was enough to really make me stop and say, "hey, I think God's telling me something". With different things just coming up, and still doing so, I feel pretty confident in the decisions I am making.


Something else that happened that I wouldn't have had the opportunity to do if I went to PCC, was become the new member to Witness. Yep. It just happened that a spot opened up and they had closed auditions. . . and well, as they say it, the rest was history. Crazy. I'm really excited about it and at the same time, scared out of my mind - seeing as I have never even had a solo or anything like that - and we have a performance in like, two weeks. Dear Lord, I am so scared. I'll live though. . . I suppose. But yeah, between that, and my yearbook scholarship and other ones I have, I should have around $8500 without government money so that's exciting.


But yeah, I really should be writing a paper right now for friendship comm. but here I am, talking to you. I really should be in the JC "running" the Superbowl party, but I'm in my room. Meh. Oh, and Tom Petty is pretty cool. Just thought you should know that. I better go, I just wanted to catch you up with the story of my oh so amazing life.

Oh! And Across the Universe comes out Tuesday. . . and my birthday is Saturday. Fate? I think so. If people just donate a dollar to the cause, I could have my very own copy :)



SO this is me and some ponies. Their names are Spencer and Sean. There are reasons.....there is also no reason for this photo. You're welcome.