Donkey.

Ass. It's one of my favorite words to say, not the best choice of words but nobody's perfect. I'm so sick of people right now. Mostly just certain ones, not necessarily the whole lot of them. I think I have found a label for these types of "friends". I say it in quotes because that is how we classify them but they do not act as they should in the least. This new term I have come to know is called "Silence of Critique". Basically, it's when you accept your friends. For instance, you don't just critique your friends, you let them speak - even if you don't agree with them (gasp!) or you don't really like what they are saying (bigger gasp!). It means you don't have to call out your friends. With this, you have more incentive to keep their mouth shut. Some can turn this around and be like, well you should be able to tell your friends everything even the bad things. But it's different, the way I see it. It's different. I can't explain it. Yes, you should tell your friends what you think and your opinions, but there is a time and a place, and that time and place shouldn't be one where they feel belittled or attacked. It's about respect, for me. I hope I am making some sense.

True friends don't do this, and I know it's just some research, but I really like the idea.
Anyways, I have realized that that is what is happening to me. Some "friends" totally do not do this. It's the complete opposite. Like, all the effing time. And I can't stand it. And I want to scream. And then the anger overflows to nearby friends - real friends - and then I feel like an ass for treating them like that. I have also come to the realization that I am pretty good at this "silence of critique" thing. (I'm ever so glad there is now a title for it) I can think of one case in particular, but that need not be shared. I don't always agree with what some of my friends say, but who am I to critique and discourage what they say to other people - in front of other people? Knowing that I try to practice this makes me feel good though, because it is what I see as a quality of a good friend and it's something I do. If you're saying, "yeah right, Heather," or you're wanting to call me a hypocrite, I am not clarifying myself about how I see this. And I'm sorry for that.

Oh, and why, please tell me why, there are those people who have to discharge to oppose every ferping thing that you say? Why is it that they choose the "opposing" side, if you will, with every topic under the sun?? Why? Please. I would like to know.

But yeah, that's the stress and new revelations in my life.

Sorry if that doesn't make much sense, I really just wanted to vent and share this new thing I learned about. Well, it's not new, but now I have a name for it.