strength.

But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wing's as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. -Isaiah 40:31


This is a song that is recently becoming popular in my world lately -a Chris Tomlin original- but is playing through my head lately.

Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord,
We will wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord,
We will wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord

Our God You reign forever
Our hope, Our strong deliverer

You are the everlasting God
The everlasting God
You do not faint, You won't grow weary

Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord,
We will wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord,
We will wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord

Our God You reign forever
Our hope, Our strong deliverer

You are the everlasting God
The everlasting God
You do not faint, You won't grow weary

You're the defender of the weak
You comfort those in need
You lift us up on wings like eagles

Our God You reign forever
Our hope, Our strong deliverer

You are the everlasting God
The everlasting God
You do not faint, You won't grow weary

You're the defender of the weak
You comfort those in need
You lift us up on wings like eagles

God, You are everlasting


As many of you now know, Cascade is supposidly closing its doors for good. I do not say this in certaintly because my mind and my heart won't allow me to. It might take a long time before I accept it, if I ever do. With all of this I still feel a sense of peace. I don't understand it. I am at such a weird position. I have roughly a year of school left, that in all reality should be finished at OC but here's the thing. We serve a God that is greater than we can imagine. I can't get to that next part until I know that I have done all I can to settle the things in my heart, which is what is now being called "The Movement". Basically, we are going to save Cascade. Plans are being made, we are pleading with God and lastly, we are not giving up Hope. Call us crazy, or unrealistic. I dare you. It's nothing that hasn't been said already in the almost two days we've had to begin to digest this news. Cascade is not dead. It never will be - so stop saying it. It might be that we don't attend it as a school and we aren't all together but it is not dead. Cascade isn't a building. It is the people. It is the burning passion that lies within our hearts. It will live on. In the meantime, I will join and fight the best I know how to keep this institution alive and running. I wish I was a writer and could just slow down and articulate my thoughts in a better way.

My best friend is leading this movement, whether he wants to or not. He's doing it because God has placed that on him, or so that is how it seems. I hope you get to read what he wrote, and I wish that I could tell him face-to-face how proud I am to be called his friend. (I guess I'll have to deal with that when or if he reads this...) There in him lies great potential for God to do some amazing things. I don't know much of anything really, but I know that God does not put such things in your heart that you are this passionate about for no reason.

"Trust in the LORD and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun. Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him…" -Psalm 37:5-7


On a completely different note, today I was given some life changing news that is not my own to discuss at the moment but nonetheless, I will ask for your prayers in this situation. It really put things into perspective about Cascade and is making me realize what truly matters in this life.


God loves me.

Jesus died for me.

I can have hope in the ressurection.



I will leave you with one more verse. I wish I could say that I just knew it, but I am not the one who has The Word down by memory. I'm that person that googles versus they need to hear and read. It works, God leads me to what I need to hear in one form or another.



Dear friends, don't be surprised by the fiery troubles that are coming in order to test you. Don't feel as though something strange is happening to you, but be happy as you share Christ's sufferings. Then you will also be full of joy when he appears again in his glory. -I Peter 4:12-13








This is an image that I randomly found a few months ago that I love.
"There is always hope."

time.

Ecclesiastes 3

A Time for Everything

1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

9 What does the worker gain from his toil? 10 I have seen the burden God has laid on men. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. 12 I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. 13 That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.

15 Whatever is has already been,
and what will be has been before;
and God will call the past to account.

weekend.

yes, this ladybug has his little hands in the air like he just doesn't care

This weekend was just what I needed. Nothing as far as school work was accomplished but my mind and soul were given a much needed refreshment. I, along with Darcy, Amanda, Dane' and Natalie, spent the weekend at Eagle Fern Camp at East County's annual retreat to watch their kiddos.

I have to give credit where credit is due. All these photos you'll see are from the eyes of Amanda... photos from yours truly and Darcy will come...in due time. Another thing, everything I knew about Jesus, about my faith - it all started with East County. They are and will always be my family. However, sometimes God calls you to be away from your family and that is why I am not really attending there presently. He wants me somewhere else (I think it's because I stayed so close for school - you have to have some seperation when you "go off to college"). However, never will I forget how good it is to go back somewhere and know you are home. That is one of the many things I got from this weeked. A weekend with my family I haven't spent that much time with. It was just comfirmed that I am still loved. And missed. And a part of something really special. I should consider myself quite lucky. I have two church families when some people find it hard to obtain one. Going back to your roots is something we all do- just in different ways.

I also got to see our missionaries, Ben and Kym Langford (and their two precious boys, Elijah and Noah) and that was a blessing in itself. Even though I do not voice it (along with many other things) they are great inspirations and blessings and very dear to my heart. I see Jesus through them. Spending time with their boys is something I will cherish since they are usually worlds away. Not to mention all the little children I got to enjoy this weekend. I am beginning to see that I am quite fond of children and think they are part of where God wants me be. With them-showing them Jesus and more importantly, seeing Jesus through them.

This weekend was also amazing in the fact that I got to see God's beauty in its finest. In nature, in my friends, in my family. The camp we went to is stunning. I've been there before for the the church retreat and also way before in high school for choir retreats but never before has it seemed this breathtaking. The autumn colors were so vibrant and alive that it was impossible to not be in love with it. I played in leaves. And not just any leaves. Leaves that are bigger than my face. I got to be a child again.

I think there was more that I wanted to talk about but some of my suitemates just arrived home and I lost whatever blogging momentum I had. Sorry, blame them.

Until next time :)

lyrics.

"I shall never grow up
Make believe is much to fun
Can we go far away to the humming meadow
This place is so lovely
It kind of makes me very happy
Lets go far away to the humming meadow"


this is from an eisley song. if you haven't ever listened to them i suggest you do. they just have beautiful harmonies. i wished i was blessed with the gift to write music and lyrics. them always seem to say things i cannot, perhaps that's why i love when i find something that just speaks what my heart wants to.

i had an amazing weekend. i'll inform you more about it when i get photos from amanda, everything's better with photos :)

blogging.

(This is for my new love of peacock feathers.)

Blogging. It's not my forte. When I actually get around to doing it, I can't figure out the best way to go about it. I feel like I have to catch you up on every detail of my life and I just can't do that in words - so come ask me. Also, I always feel so random and that my thoughts aren't connected. Well, guess what folks - that's how my brain works most of the time...

So, to get you all a bit up to date...

Summer was a m a z i n g . I wouldn't have had it any other way. I fell in love with like 70 kids and they showed be a glimse of what it is like to be Jesus to people. I met new friends, new faces and grew closer to those I knew going into it. I love PUMP. I love PSP. There's a new special place in my heart that's been filled that frankly I didn't know was empty. I now love going to church. It's about more than seeing friends - it's about seeing Jesus.

School is already taking over most of my life...but in a good way I suppose. I'm not taking too big of a class load, but I am, however, taking a class from each part of my IDS (psych, business, comm) which I have never done before. Variety. I like it. Deltas is going swimmingly - I say that as I knock on wood... Our pledge class was a bit smaller than normal - 10 - but my new sisters are pretty swell if I do say so myself. I love being a Delta. I just do. That's all I can say to explain it :o)

It's strange. I actually like my classes this semester. I can apply them to my life as of right now. It's crazy. Who would have thought, right? Something else that's on my mind right now is Witness...auditions are coming up I can feel it...my mom is constantly pestering me to audition and I don't really know what to do with it. I really enjoy singing and touring for the little bit was fun, but is that what I want? Is that what God wants for me? I have no clue. I do know that I need scholarships and it comes with a nice one but is that a reason to do something? I don't know. Just pray for that situation. Whatever that means. I have been giving some things to God and he is taking care of things and I want this to be something I can give Him as well. (Strange, the issues that are hard for me to give up are the ones that keep me stressing...)

I don't even know where I'm going with this....so I'm going to end it.


There you have it. My life in a little teeny nut shell.